have to vent... - United Bimmer Community

**Numark318i** · 12-10-2005, 10:20 PM

I guess this isnt much of a pissed off vent as it is..well i dont know.
I realized lately that i just dont have any friends. I mean there are people that i hang out with occasionally..but I just never really fit in. Until 7th grade i had one great friend, we did everythign together. I moved away, and we slowly are lossing contact. Hes gone from Computer geek to druged out drunk. I guess hes movign to La with some girl. When i moved to where i am right now I just never really fit in. I tried and for a while it seemed like i fit in(took two years) but recently its all gone. It seems everyone is happy like they are, with their fake friends who talk shit about each other and use each other. im sick of it.

I really feel like my only way of getting out of the house is work. I dont enjoy going out with friends anymore, we do the same boring shit all the time, and when i say lets do somethign else..no one wants to. This is on the rare occasion i have somethign to do.

i dont know what the hell im even talking about anymore..theres just so much shit going through my mind. I have given up on the idea of having a girl friend, cause i live out in the sticks and work all the time. If i dont work then i have nothing to do cause im not going to go out alone.
fuck, i just need some new friends, a new life...i have to get out and see the world, not like everyone i know who just wants to sit around and do nothing with their lives. Godamit i want to get ahead, I want to make friends, i want an education, I want to travel, I want to find a girl who isnt a drug addict, or an ungratefull spoiled bitch.

ok i think the point here is that i just want to start my life over somewhere else, but i dont want to wait till I graduate from college...but for financial purposes i kinda have to.
I all college students go through these feelings..I just want to write about it.

witeshark · 12-10-2005, 10:25 PM

I have feelings just like that lately too.

craig · 12-10-2005, 10:36 PM

iv had that feeling since i was 12, welcome to my world.

**Terp** · 12-10-2005, 11:20 PM

i think craig put it the best welcome to my world. I know what u mean about the freinds though, it seems in college having a good relationship with a group of freinds just doesn't happpen, because the second that somthing better comes along your out.

**c1apton** · 12-10-2005, 11:20 PM

It's called "growing pains". You're totally fed up with being mediocre or stagnant as your "friends". Instead of getting frustrated about it, you should be feeling pretty good that YOU'RE not one of those "flat-lining, do nothing wanna bees". You've already made it clear you have goals and you're chomping at the bit for them to happen, whereas these people around you, "aquaintances" are content at doing what they do.

Screw them, put your head down & work on positives for YOU. Right now things are tight, restraints w/school & lack of funds are all on your brain & it's frustrating - we all go through this. Take on some other projects that don't require alot of resources from you - surf the web, research things that get your brain cranking. Whatever you do don't get down on yourself because you don't seem to fit other peoples' agendas.

It took some big "nads" to even post your feelings and I think the majority of the "bros" here in UB will agree - you're a pretty good dude and you fit here. Peace

**Numark318i** · 12-10-2005, 11:46 PM

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Originally Posted by c1apton

It's called "growing pains". You're totally fed up with being mediocre or stagnant as your "friends". Instead of getting frustrated about it, you should be feeling pretty good that YOU'RE not one of those "flat-lining, do nothing wanna bees". You've already made it clear you have goals and you're chomping at the bit for them to happen, whereas these people around you, "aquaintances" are content at doing what they do.

Screw them, put your head down & work on positives for YOU. Right now things are tight, restraints w/school & lack of funds are all on your brain & it's frustrating - we all go through this. Take on some other projects that don't require alot of resources from you - surf the web, research things that get your brain cranking. Whatever you do don't get down on yourself because you don't seem to fit other peoples' agendas.

It took some big "nads" to even post your feelings and I think the majority of the "bros" here in UB will agree - you're a pretty good dude and you fit here. Peace

well put...thats about what im feeling. thnx for the support, and thats one of the reasons i post on here. Thanks again my night just got a little better.

**komodo** · 12-10-2005, 11:53 PM

I think everyone goes through this phase at one point or another. You just need to keep your head up and you'll get through it.

And yes, even thought this is an internet website, and as lame as it sounds (however true), you will always be welcome and fit in here.

drz · 12-11-2005, 01:03 AM

That is what is great about what an online community provides. We like you here. I know that as human beings we also need ocassional contact with other people that is not though a computer monitor, but imagine what happened to young lads like us 100 years ago.

Anyhow, this shall pass in due time. I agree that it is good that you realize the emptiness of many of the relationships that are formed around you. Sometimes people are brought into our lives when we need them; at other times, we are left alone for our own development.

Going through what you are at the time is a very important step in life. Eventually you'll find more people that think like you do. You will develop relationships with people who like you for who you are, and whom you like in the same fashion. I think being able to do that is a very important component of adult life.

Hang in there, buddy.

Thanks for sharing.

**B_w.** · 12-11-2005, 02:26 AM

things will be alright. join the army. see the world, meet new people, and go fuck shit up.lol. once you see how most of the world lives you will not feel too bad about yourself. things usually improve for the better.

**donald1476** · 12-11-2005, 04:01 AM

I am having a kegger on Friday before New years, you are invited. Didn't read through the entire trhread sorry ... little drunk

**Numark318i** · 12-12-2005, 12:25 AM

thnx again. ...i do plan to travel the world, but not via the armd forces...im way to nimble to do any sort of military stuff.

ill be there Chris...haha.