Some people wonder why i'm on so much. On United Bimmer. Its because United Bimmer IS my life. Literally. You see, My family is slowly dying. Not my immediate family, but my most likely future In laws. My girlfriends mother is slowly dying of cancer. It Started out as thryoid cancer. So they cut out her thyroid gland and put her n daily medication to make up for. That was a year ago. Things were great. everyone thought that the cancer was gone. Sadly, it wasn't. The cancer had spread to her breasts and her brain. In her brain is an inoperable brain tumor. So some day she will die.
Her dying doesn't just affect her, it affects the whole family andeverybody who is close to the family. Not only is a part of all of us dying, but we are all slowly growing apart, and at the same time growing together. But there's lots of fighting and lots of therapy to be done. Everyone fights with everybody every day because there's so much pent up anger with nowhere to go so it slowly but surely leaks into every day life.
So at the end of every day, where i spend all my time either in class or on the phone with my girlfriend and her siblings, I come here. This is my life. This is MY therapy. I spend my day listening t everyone else and helping everyone else feel better and cope with the inevitability of life. So when i come ehre, this is my lie. My release. Its a web based forum, but still, its more real to me than possibly anything in this world ther than being with my girlfriend.
I don't know if that had any point. I just decided to post about it after harry suggested that i open up a bit, it might help. This is what came out
All i ask that is that there is absolutely no bashing language r racism of any kind in this thread. It was hard enough to hit the submit button, don't make it worse, please.